Situated love letters to myself and the others

eels

2007-06-20T19:55:18Z

Erase the bad thoughts racing
Through this body of mine
Where blood and pulse pace
Side by side

Are you watching!
Hey I deserve to know
Since you keep haunting me so

My hearts' down to something
Just waiting to break
I cannot have you to cling
Onto

Are you watching!
Hey I deserve to know
Since you keep haunting me so

In the halls when I'm alone
And the dog barks at
Empty corners in the home
I know you're there

Are you watching!
Hey I deserve to know
Since you keep haunting me so

I remember all too well

2007-06-08T00:19:17Z

Car pulls up along the narrow street
I remember the peeling paint
The dying grass and wet leaves
Clothesline in the back sways

I pulled out the rakes
The black bags and nothing else
The scent of something baking
Lingered near

Sometimes I slide down old stairs
Or lie on a cool marble floor
In a basement cold
But no more

we'd be the death of one another

2007-06-03T20:02:28Z

"The Miss C. Blues"

Death come closing in on me
When I think of pulling apart
One by one, you and me

See I'm the cause of it all
Now I'm feeling the effects
And I should just let go

In a funk over these thoughts
That play to my animal side
Look at the damage I brought

I cry into your shoulder
But I get more childish
When I should grow older

Aren't you hiding in your shell
The secrets spill out
Like oil stains from a well

Sad affair and total confusion
Where should I place my shoes
Down for us or a imperfect union

I'll give you a man who wants to rule the world

2007-05-30T14:58:04Z

"Adore"

I'd make my escape amid growing isolation
I'd give into lasting temptation
The lust for life reigns on
But to play fair again
I would play fair again

I'd lie there naked, feeling conflicted
As my whole world got up and shifted
Parting with mixed feelings
But to be worry free
I am trying to be worry free

I'd fall into this affair one more time
Love isn't easy when things do not rhyme
Oh these bloodshot eyes
I'd stumble on banged up
I'd walk away banged up

down the hatch

2007-05-24T05:51:50Z

Gray eyed and pleasantly surprised
In the depths of a sea
Staring from a window
To gaze down at me

I'm afraid of outside world
My pillow is clung tight
The darkness growing
And I'm ready to fight

The heat is on too high
No relief in the rain
Your love is weighing down
Leaving bloody stains

Gray eyed and pleasantly surprised
In the depths of me
Staring through a window
To imagine being free

well I'm a sweet one today and a rotten one tomorrow

2007-05-17T04:43:56Z

"Darling, I'm Not Well"

Can't you picture me kissing you?
Or has that thought died to?
Have you lifted a finger
Pressed it to my mouth
Oh darling that sweet face
Turning sour with a pout

Your staring so admiringly
But when will we leave it be?
Climb the creaking stairs
To my 3rd floor flat
Kiss and cuddle
Oh no I won't deny you that

Love still rings so true
Sweetheart no farewell, so cruel
I think shame is far
From my conflicted mind
When I recieve kisses
That leave me blank and blind

mess witcha, mess witcha, mess witcha ya mind

2007-05-15T05:22:24Z

"Perfumerie"

I waded through the closed glade
The lilac petals on display
And I grew teary eyed
At their sight

I sipped cider and ale
Under the moonlight turned pale
With a beautiful girl in my lap
And another in mind, taking a nap

The scents that were so divine
I'd give up anything, even my time
On this Earth for
That sweet amour

dreamy love heady mix

2007-05-08T20:26:27Z

What you see pleases your eyes
But your so worried over saying goodbye
When you meet and that blood rushes
As your skin turns a rosy blush

Converse for hours forgetting time
Are these feelings still mine
Kiss those soft lips in light rain
Oh the agony that I must restrain

Sleeping on my pillow when I want yours
Where's my consolation prize, behind doors
Misery everlong and cruel again
In due time my heart mends

do, do, do, do

2007-05-01T02:09:54Z

Keeps appearing in my flooded head
In some form beside or in my bed
The ports of my door are unlocked
By her skeleton key
Just a piece of her plot

It's so funny that a raven haired one
Takes my heart as something to be won
There's something sly in the grin
She flashes my passing as if
To say she wants in

Nobody's supposed to know her intentions
Or suspect a thing if I'm mentioned
Its hard to function when I'm nervous
About her just round the corner
Offering her service

The air in here is chilled
But I sit on edge, part of the thrill
I wait in wonder and desire
If she'll come over and
Let me sit by her

love is blindness

2007-04-30T07:15:43Z

Everything is far too bright
I'm losing my focus and
I'm losing my sense of sight
The silverscreen was just there
Now the person to my left
Is just nowhere

My mind is lost in the heat
With every passing second
I feel my heart losing beat
I want to throw my arms
Around my loved one
To be safe from harm

Blindness
Setting in
White light
White heat
What't this mean?

I'm tripping over the cement
In a fit of panic
Something here is bent
Lost my way on the grass
This must be just a moment
That'll soon pass

It seems endless but I'm fearful
Of what may come
To take things only by the earfull
Should I have a dying wish
To overcome the regret
Of anything that'll be missed

Blindness
Setting in
White light
White heat
What's this mean?

love is touch

2007-04-25T07:03:17Z

I feel most alive touching your body
So excited and passionate when naked
Caressing your flesh and bumping
Into one another
Watching you in the wee hours
Of the night
Awaking to kissing you
Is the best way to start
The day

crosseyed and painless

2007-04-25T03:58:36Z

"The Sky Isn't the Only Limit"

When your awake at 7:30 in the AM
The radio alarm has turned you on
In the 2 story dutch colonial
On a tree-lined street
Over your shoulder your sleeping wife
In the other room your sleeping kids
You think "what did I do to deserve this?"

At work your attention drifts in and out
Your silently screaming at the ceiling
Watching the sweat buildup under your arms
The lunch hour a sweet release
All the mindless ants at the red light
Wishing them dead in the crosswalk
You've no time for small talk

Rush hour, you could kill yourself
Attend happy hour and AA meetings
Given up smoking for a change
But now your regretting it again
Pull yourself into the drive way
Dinner is cooking an hour later
Quietly "why am I becoming a hater?"

TV is more dull and boring
As bad as wallpaper shopping
Sink yourself into the bathtub
Can it get any worse?
Kiss the wife and kids goodnight
Tuck under the sheets
Once again after you fall asleep

I never asked

2007-04-17T04:32:03Z

Take a walk with me along the dirt path
Won't you cleanse me with your heart
Won't you wash me down with a teary bath
In light of your anger
What you do to me out of spite
Every conversation a cliffhanger

In the event of my death
Would you weep or laugh

I think of you as the highest priority
But for my declarations of love
The biting sting of you ignoring me
My last days pondering my fnial hour
It's to you I look
To give me that power

In the event of my death
Would you weep or laugh

You and I with our lust for life
Daggers are out to cut through
Grass and clear the fog, into the light
Drawn out over the course of years
I'll stand before you naked
Emptying myself of fears

In the event of my death
Would you weep or laugh

another pass

2007-04-16T03:26:29Z

"Grateful Dead Suite"

Well I'm back from school in Vermont
It's now summertime and I need a job
I smell of incense and patchouli
What you say won't get through to me

I sit on my front porch, smoke my pipe
Take in the stars on a dark night
Here in my northern lumberjack town
Waste my days by lying around

Down to the ice cream shack
Trying to get my old career back
All I get is a cup of sherbert
And high school girls who want to flirt

Spend time as a lifeguard by the lake
I just sit there skin tanned and baked
Drown my misery with drinks and jam bands
My best friend is my hand

asleep in and out

2007-04-07T03:45:31Z

"Just Another Passenger"

Day in and day out, aboard the metro
Fade in and fade out, just like the radio
I walk the hills, take in the views
The summer heat, creates new colored hues
All the beautiful girls on the way
All the beautiful girls who like to play

Riding with the crowds, my bag closed up
Nothing for them to steal, pickpockets outta luck
Oh the kids sing for money, though make not a cent
Everyday I come and go, they are there as if they never went
All the beautiful girls on the way
All the beautfiul girls who like to play

Night time coming, I'm riding into town
Night time leaving, I'm drunk and falling down
Stars and moonlight, guide me in the labyrinth
To some drunk honey, I'm just another opportunity missed
All the beautiful girls on the way
All the beautiful girls who like to play

Along for the ride, struck by the sights and sounds
I take the train, towards the heart and all around
My words are few, my admirers even less
Still to the untrained eye, I look the best
All the beautiful girls on the way
All the beautiful girls who like to play,play,play...

lying in my bed of flowers

2007-04-05T02:58:49Z

The river runs loudly here
It's sound reminds me of
The feeling of fear
Waterfalls toss my raft down
Into the void
Where my heavy heart drowns

I halt all the bad thoughts
Surrender to the fate
That was given to my lot
Waiting patiently for my
Own time coming
To come or pass me by

I won't be satisfied until
All the hate's been lifted
Up and over that Sysphian hill
Looming over my shoulder
I see all my
Lovers and friends getting older

To walk in circles and
See through the masks of
Those who use sleight of hand
I shift my weight towards
One way when I should
Lean facing foward

hurt inside and out

2007-04-03T04:43:45Z

Here amid the street garbage and gutters
Lies my shattered body
For life I'm suckling on some cow's udders
The shadows creep along the walls silently
My heart beating fast
A sweet return from a loved ones suddenly

The Earth stand stills, doesn't quake
When she looks on down
Offering a hand that heals as it shakes
Gravity is here and now gone
When the feelings I have
And dreams I need are prolonged

From the clouds she will descend
Touching me and telling
Me that all broken hearts mend
Wheelbarrow me up off the ground
I've grown tired
Of just hanging around

it's just you and I

2007-03-30T06:28:53Z

I propose a toast to you
We both know how great
Loving the other is
I can only imagine the
Best for you and
Best for us both

I need no longer to
Think things through
I made my mind up
To stick with you
In good times and in bad
I'm best when I'm with you

So I'm hear to sing your praises
Smile as if I hadn't seen you
In oh so many years
Sure thing as true love
That's what you and I
Had and always will have

no need to get seasick

2007-03-26T06:06:26Z

"Sea Changes"

Our situation has made us sick at heart
Everything's clouded, where to start?
From your eyes tears drip slowly
From your lips words flow freely

On your bed we lie in uncertainty
But we must do something, this is an emergency
A man is strongest when he admits he's wounded
A woman is stronger when she's soothing

Spring breezes fill the room with fury
A wager that we're not lost just blurried
It's getting old with only words
It's gonna get better, without the hurt

Sometimes it takes weeks to heal deep cuts
But loving you and showing it, that's a must
Your on my mind all of the time
Your hopes realized are wishes of mine

We're both so young in the face
But our hearts weigh heavy with age
It's nothing more than a pinprick
It's a love that won't burn out quick

Parade our problems in front of each other
Sometimes you have to confront your lover
Shake loose the things holding them tight
Shake their head when they take things light

autumn and spring

2007-03-20T04:38:06Z

My relief from the pain and suffering
Is coming with the changing of seasons
I believe you do to me much good
I know you'd heal me if you could

Throughout all my days of woe and whining
Only the sustained love from you
Would aleve from any wounds I had
I could feel a balm enclosing the bad

desolate me

2007-03-19T04:27:28Z

"Idle Lovers"

Kept me at bay for so long
But you'll learn to love me
And our love will grow so strong
I'm found waking up in the closet
Of our little girl's room
Did you think you've lost it?

When I burned the bushes on
The front lawn on summer nights
It was my offering to carry on
You've ranked number one on my list
I'll get under your skin
Surgically removed like a cyst

Just waiting across the street
In the rain, in the dark
Hoping to catch a glimpse and meet
You'd deny me all the promises
Made on our wedding day
I think you've a career as a melodramatist

So this can play out in two ways
Either with a fairy tale end
Or on a rather unpleasant day
You make your choice and I'll
Make mine and then will see
Whose graves have lines filed

wave goodbye

2007-03-14T01:53:09Z

I saw the passage of hours flying
She cried out that her love was dying
All I could do was console her
Anything that would remove the hurt

Dreams of my impending death
Came running out as cold sweat
She said "You are flesh and blood"
"Do not leave me behind, in the mud!"

Fate was shooting slings and arrows
My moment was closing in...narrow
Rain beated down upon rooftop shingles
Her worst fear widowed and single

My voice would soothe her as something
A guardian angel for emotions so touching
Weeping tears fell down flights of stairs
Gently I ignored whether or not it was fair

She begged, asked and screamed to borrow time
What she could have to save this life of mine
Souls started to march and dance toward me
I believed them to leave us be

no ball or chain

2007-03-13T06:13:34Z

"Greetings from Madison"

Baby, welcome back from your flight
Here's some flowers and a box of candy
I hope your feeling fine tonight
If you'd like to make love

I've been chain smoking for days
Over your impending return
I'm gonna let you have your way
With me for as long as you want

I wish the best out of it all
I hope you can call it happy time
This king who bows before your call
Is alert and wild once more

Sweetheart I am here for you
I'd hate for anything to be
Forgotten that was true
I'm willing and up for anything

j'adore mia bella

2007-03-08T06:03:42Z

Can't explain all the mysteries of life
Especially when your in love
And you need just one night

It's alright to retire so early
When your running out so fast
And the money's gone in a hurry

Somedays I'm just a wreck
Pieces all around everywhere
Couldn't keep my end of the bet

I should not need worry
But I'm feeling sorry anyway
When my lovelife's turned blurry

I'm working to earn her trust
Because one hello these days
Doesn't quite mean enough

I'm not bearing any threat or harm
I'm head over heels for her
Sharpen my words, shoes and charm

Darling I'm coming with two bouquets
Love letters and more
Hoping love will find a way

edited

2007-03-06T06:28:23Z

"Drop of Water"

This is my stab at sentiment
You can call it a first lament
Take it with a grain of sand
If your too scared to take my hand

I'm waiting to see your face
But I need to reach a certain place
Well until then I'm just biding time
Putting sorrow into rhyme

I've tears to swallow
Even though I'm always heartless and hollow

Please grace me with your prescence
Even if it's brief and pleasant
It's become just so hard
I'm cracking by day's start

Wilt no more in my memory
Water you as I'm thristy
I'm never to dream up false feelings
You won't find me kneeling

I've tears to swallow
Even though I'm always heartless and hollow